My Story :

After a traumatic , emotionally violent spiritual awakening and what felt like abandonment by my twin flame in 2017  I set off on a journey to remember who I am . This journey was actually meant for me to become whole within myself once again . I didn’t know that was what I was doing then. I did know I wanted to figure out what was happening to me . I looked for help everywhere, in coaches, online spaces, healers but I was never truly able to find what I was looking for . I had to figure it out on my own .This built a new person entirely , no longer recognizable to the old self . Crossing into different timelines and phases of development along the way . This past year and a half I have finally come into a powerful place of inner peace and wholeness within myself . All of the pain, sadness, confusion and profound loneliness had a very specific purpose. Nothing is accidental.  I have been pulled to really work on myself, my patterns, my nervous system triggers  as well as my spiritual goals . All of it matters, not spiritual bypassing or avoiding shadow. I wanted to become the mentor I needed so badly so I pulled in the experiences I would need to learn how to be that person . The road to inner peace for me has not been easy or soft in any way. What I realized was that the soft path to awakening doesn’t create leaders , it keeps people stuck in illusion . I understand this . If you are here reading this now I know your journey has not been an easy road either. I am thankful for the painful process as I have been shown many times that it is not about me . It has always been about others, feeling the pain, moving forward anyway and refusing to stay stuck is very difficult . I had to keep moving because the inner drive to keep moving and processing everything was truly otherworldly . Something bigger than me was pulling me forward always , no matter how sad, lonely, poor or exhausted I was .Some of the situations I have been placed in were truly spiritual warfare, within the darkness, within personal relationships, in foreign places, in churches, and for a loss of a better word,  karmic reckoning situations . I have been guided the whole time , as a small ,weak woman it was strange I would be trusted with these “jobs“. Now I understand, I wanted them all ..  I have learned to listen and do what I am asked to do no matter what . I was not supposed to understand it from my limited human perspective. I am not special , I am not brilliant, I am not rich, I am not important in the way most people think of importance. I do know that I am obedient to what is asked of me . My obedience has never let me down and I have no choice but to follow the leadership. I do know I must have made a promise, I will keep it no matter what happens. This type of conviction creates true leaders not the ones we think lead the world  . Quiet leadership can be infinitely powerful , and true spiritual leadership is always behind the veil first before it can be grounded in the third dimensional reality. The spiritual leadership is the most important to be trusted with first and it is not leadership in the world's definition . It is silent, it is quiet peace and true inner knowing . It creates a person with such conviction within the self,  with loyalty to your connection, to your mission in the spiritual and the physical world . This way literally no one can take you off the path, not even your own fear .  I know there are others out there like me who need my support and encouragement . I will lead this way in both the spirit and in the real world . There are many “spiritual leaders” out there claiming to be able to help you but if they themselves are still stuck in illusory matrix consciousness despite what they claim , you will feel it in your body . You will feel repelled by them, trust this. Expensive coaching programs charging $4444 are not real spiritual practices. It is just more matrix illusion trying to keep people stuck in ego and illusion. If you are repelled by this then that is your intuition speaking , trust it . That is your first line of self defense . Hone it . The darkness is very cunning , the false light has tricked many people into thinking they have “achieved awakening” . Many people use fancy words and have long titles to make themselves seem like an authority .This is not divine authority . I am sorry,  the only spiritual authority in the twin flame mission is Jesus himself . That is it . If you have no direct connection to jesus and don’t have a personal relationship to him you cannot lead twin flames .  I try my best to remain humble enough to relay his messages and guidance without any assumptions or ego to get in the way . I am not perfect but try to stay out of it because my interpretation of your situation is obsolete. Only he knows you intimately and can see what I cannot. All I can do is relay the message to you , that is always my main goal . Clear communication and creating a clean line from him to me to you . He is the leader of the twins , the twins when in energetic union , ground Christ consciousness into 3rd dimensional space. It was always his gift to humanity and  it was always his responsibility. He takes this mission very seriously. The world depends on it . So listen to his leadership always no matter what anyone tries to say to you . Jesus , he is bossy sometimes yes so you’ll know it’s him by the way he leads . He is the commander in chief,  I am just a foot soldier . No big titles, no list of “achievements” no false promises or gimmicks . I guess that’s what he meant by leadership . Even it if scares me I must continue onward. Keep speaking up , keep moving forward , do not give up.